Jobs and what not

I don't think I will get a job. I feel like I haven't been performing at my interviews. Perhaps I'm just too honest. It does get to me when people talk about jobs and I feel all sad and unemployed. If you ask me what's the point of going for so many interviews, when I don't feel anything for the job, I tell you it's to gain interview experience. In truth, it's to boost my ego when I'm accepted. The little things I live for. Interview fatigue is once again getting to me and I can't wait for Hong Kong. Here I am worrying (or not) about job hunting and finding the exclusive, elusive, "perfect" first job and I read on an airline mag that a JC schoolmate of mine is an award-winning bartender. I doubt you read this, but you go, Aubrey! And Joyce is like creating an album and being a rock star and a super ultra cool music teacher! I salute them for stepping away from the normal path and not getting caught up in the rat race. Unlike me, where a "good" first job is probably a be all and end all, but that's so immature of me to think, because how can it be the end, when it is just the beginning. I feel so small and insignificant with my juvenile job hunting woes. And I desperately feel like publishing my letter from A, just so people won't tell me "But they don't want you, right?". ARGH! But then again, Hui said her friend also got the same type of reply. :(